You don't know me.

March/05/2008 Filed in: Miscellanea | My Own Thoughts | Religion
People think that I was never very religious because they didn't see it. But that couldn't be further from the truth. Even my own wife has learned more about my previous spirituality since I opened up in this journal than she knew before. People who know me think they knew what I was about when it came to God, but they didn't, because I kept it to myself. As I do with most things, it's part of my personality. It's been quite liberating to actually share information on this blog that I would have never shared before.

As little as two years ago I would listen to the same christian music tape in the car everywhere I went and I would sing along out loud. When I was by myself of course. I really believed and wanted to be surrounded by Gods love. It's fortunate that when I realized God doesn't exist it didn't have a detrimental affect on me, I can see how it would on others.

I'm not trying to contradict myself at all. I may have said in the past that I wasn't very religious but the truth is I was never openly or outwardly religious. I believed in God, I prayed almost daily for someone other than myself, I occasionally broke out the Bible to look something up. I didn't spend my days reading the bible. I know more about the Bible now and have read more of the Bible now than I did in my previous 36 years.
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